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In Dreams …

June 16, 2010

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Or How Ideas Come to Me.

I have both of these titles listed in my blog ideas doc. Yes, I have an idea doc. It’s to keep me on some sort of schedule with my blogging. It kind of works. I’m only a day late in writing this one, but I was sick on Monday, so I have an excuse.

In dreams …

Ideas for stories, whether short or novel-length, can come from practically anywhere for me. Life around me is what usually inspires … a quote, a picture, something overheard at the cafe, the sky and its multitude of stars especially right at dusk, a drive through barren desert, or the look in my Moon’s eyes – at 10, she still has the puppy look, but the eyes hold an ancient wisdom at times.

I’ve never claimed to have a muse, and my friends know how much I despise the term, but if I had to state that I had a muse, I would say that Life is it. Sometimes, I dream part of a story, or I dream about one of the characters. I include daydreams in that because I have a hyperactive imagination and it’s like constantly watching a movie in my head. Ideas come fast and hit me hard, usually in dialog, and if I don’t write them down somewhere, they’re lost forever because I certainly won’t remember them again with my horrible memory, unless something specific triggers it. That’s happened very rarely. I’m thankful my Blackberry has a memo option and I just figured out how to email those memos to myself. Win! Now I just have to remember that my Blackberry has a memo option.

Once, about eight years ago, I had a nightmare. When I woke up, I grabbed my beautiful Italian leather journal and wrote him down. Him is one I call Daemon, and he scares the crap out of me. In fact, it’s taken nearly these last eight years to get past him enough to use him in a story. That story has recently had to change dramatically due to changes in relationships with others, which is why I hate collaborating on stories. But he is still the same evil little bastard he always has been … and he still scares the crap out of me.

Sometimes I hate my dreams. Usually I’m being chased by zombies. Apparently, I need to write a zombie book, but I don’t think I could top The Forest of Hands and Teeth.

About dialog …

Dialog is always the first thing I hear. Yes, I hear it. Some random new character will start monologuing as soon as my head hits the pillow. It’s happened … several times. It’s also annoying as all get out. The clearest one I’ve ever heard was Ezriel. He’s my seraphim vamp. Yep, you read that correctly. He started talking to me somewhere around 2004/2005 and I still don’t know his full story. He’s a bit shy about why/how he became a vamp. And I haven’t felt the need to pressure him just yet, but soon, he’ll have to talk. *contemplates chains*

My dialog in stories is pretty strong and I’m proud of it. I’d just like to get better at the initial detail, and I think I’m getting there. If you ever read one of my first drafts, you’ll see mostly dialog and very little detail. Although, with the two newest stories I’ve begun, the detail seems to be weaving its way into the first drafts, so *happy*.

The idea doc …

It’s like an outline for me. I may loathe outlining novels, but I outline the rest of my life. It’s kind of sad, really. Maybe that’s why I can’t outline the stories. I need that freedom somewhere. I think it has to do with my fading memory. I’ll literally walk through the steps of my day the night before if I have important things to do. Of course, that’s me trying to control everything and if I’ve learned anything at all in life, it’s that I can’t control the motions set in place that will f*ck up my world entirely.

But I still try to control them.

One of these days, maybe I’ll figure out how to control … oh, never mind.

13 Comments leave one →
  1. June 16, 2010 11:44 pm

    Lol… controlling the voices in our heads.. you silly pill.

    We gave you an award! *throws confetti and runs away*

    ❤ Kelsey Leigh

    • NL Gervasio permalink*
      June 16, 2010 11:46 pm

      Another award? Wow, I’m getting a lot of those lately. =)

    • NL Gervasio permalink*
      June 17, 2010 2:04 am

      I already got that award from Tessa! Crap.

  2. June 17, 2010 12:52 pm

    Nice! I get a lot of my ideas from dreams too and, the sources you named. I can’t even watch TV or movies anymore because I’ve got the entire story in the first ten minutes. Drives me nuts. I hunger for the surprise! (Like when I was surprised to find myself reading Twilight let alone enjoying it as a total escape from the horribleness going on in my life at the time.)

    I know what you mean about Muses too. I think I fired mine though..I might’ve eaten him/her for not showing up on call. But there’s this figure in my dreams that scares the snot out of me who often brings me stories. So I relate there!

    I’m also strong on dialog. I’m strong on description too but often throw it to the wind because…well, using S. King as an example? I could really care less what the fucking grass looks like or what type it is as we walk up to the Marsten House. lol

    • NL Gervasio permalink*
      June 17, 2010 5:26 pm

      I knew I liked you! That S. King example was beautiful.

  3. June 17, 2010 5:21 pm

    Dialogue…where I excel. It keeps me awake late into the night when I should be sleeping, and sometimes I speak it aloud and make my husband think I’m a loon.

    When you have the zombie nightmare, just put me in there. You KNOW I will fall down and you will be able to get away when the zombies get me. lol

    I keep an idea file too–sometimes it’s just a title that occurred to me, sometimes a line or a character, sometimes a full-fledged plotline. I joke about my muse but I really don’t have one, unless you want to consider music my muse. More of my work is inspired by songs than anyone will ever know. 😉

    • NL Gervasio permalink*
      June 17, 2010 5:32 pm

      Wow! You truly are a friend to offer up yourself to zombies! LOL

      You have a OneNote file like I do, don’t you? I haven’t opened that in a while though. I keep forgetting about it.

      • June 17, 2010 6:45 pm

        Yup, OneNote. Freaking love that program. I have it all sectioned out, tabs in the sections for characters, plot line, research–what? lol

    • NL Gervasio permalink*
      June 17, 2010 6:56 pm

      Ahahahaha … oh wait, I think I do that too. Crap.

    • NL Gervasio permalink*
      June 17, 2010 10:45 pm


  4. June 17, 2010 7:09 pm

    It’s so funny that this is your process. My ideas normally come to me in dreams. Of course, one of my best didn’t, so maybe that should tell me something.

    • NL Gervasio permalink*
      June 17, 2010 7:20 pm

      It’s very rare that I dream of them whilst sleeping. Daydreaming is a whole other world…er…story…whatever. To be honest, I’m kind of glad my vamps and werewolves don’t show up in my dreams. Some of them are downright scary!

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